well july is pretty much over... nuthin much really to say except i cant sleep which sucks cuz i hav to work today.... but i have to think about the fact that i get paid double the money cuz i work two jobs now....hot guy is still hot! and i finally know his name...plus there was this really hot guy at chuck e cheese today... i know what u guys or really girls might b thinkin.... hot guys at chuck e cheese???? truth is there is a whole buch of hot guys that come in there and its really cute cuz most of the time they come in with their little bro or sis so u think their a great guy... so its kinda tricky.... but it doesnt make them any less hot! ;) lol... i dont really want to go back to school cuz i really am just focused on earning money to a- put in my savings account... and b- to go on my trip to new york in december!.... umm things with my..."guy" r ok hes ok but i dunno... should i really be dating him? and that pretty much covers it... i guess im gonna go to sleep... and think about nothing other than thats right.... WORK!..lol

*jack

hey again... well its pretty late at night but i cant seem to get to sleep even though i know that i hav to get up at 8 to go for a run... man today was great! Nothing could ruin the day for me! well found out that i will probably get to go to manhattan by the end of the summer! which is really great... but also means that since it is very expensive i think i might be  needin a lil extra money.. which is y today was pretty great... ive got an interview with the manager at chuckie cheese on tuesday... between ummm 2 and 4. so everyone wish me luck.... i am really excited cuz most likely i might get hired! so yea ... but i am kinda hopin i get to be the mouse...that would b kool!..lol but at the same time i am a lil nervous cuz i mean it would b my first job! man im gettin old....so all n all this summer has been the best i hav ever had cuz i hav been goin everywhere... n been really busy.... but i miss all u ppl that i dont get to see or talk to much.. in a way i want school to start n at the same time.... i dont want the fun to end... also i am a lil bit confused about..... umm lets call him....."joe" i dont know what i want to do about this guy... hes really great.. n he tries really hard but at the same time hes a little to ...there.... i dunno im retarded i need change and he deffinately is change.... so i think things will work out wit a lil bit of effert... which means that i can no longer "kill" the moments we hav.. right???? cuz well its better to try... n know that u really try n then i guess i can decide if things will go father than what they kinda r now... which is basicly.... my favorite thing to do now....DATE!

*jack

man.... its been such a long time since i hav written anythin in this thing... well lets see theres lots to tell... i had a great time in south tx!.... lets just say sum nights wel absolutly.... hmmm... indescribable! thanks to well u know who u r....lol.... lets see i decided that i need to go shopping soon cuz the whole time i was there on that island... i relized that i want to change some things... most definatly my clothes... i think i might actually buy s skirt... second thought... thats a little extreme.. but im int the mood to change my look and as for my personality... thats pretty much gonna stay the same... for those of u that still read this thing... i am back home.... i came back really late tusday night cuz i was scheduled to hav surgery on weds. morning at 9 am.... so from the hours of 8 am all the way to 6 pm... i cant remember a thing....so all i really remember is waking up in my room... wondering how i got there... and y i feel like i just got the shit beatin out of me.. so im sry if i havent called any of u but mainly its cuz i can open my mouth past half an inch... it hurts like a bitch.. so in a way this is lettin u guys know that i am home... but only temperarly... after i get these dam stiches out of my mouth a week later i will be goin back to south tx for the rest of the summer... i really love it down there... and i really miss my friend from there... sry if what i am writing doesnt make any sense... but man i love these pain killers!!!! !!!! i want u all to know that i missed u guys soooo much and even though i will be goin back... i will still try to keep in touch... its just that here i feel like one person and over there i feel... free.... different in a way... and i love that feeling. well i am gettin kinda sleepy so for those of u that still read this thing feel free to call me and i will try to find a way to talk to u... i think i can speak well enough for u to understand me.... man my face is sooo freakin swalllon! ahhhh hope to speak to anyone of u soon....

*jackie

Her Heart ...

 She knows her heart 

has been broken 

into tiny pieces by 

a man. Could she 

love again? Only 

she can answer that. 

No man can force her 

to do what she 

thinks is best for 

her heart. She wants 

to feel the need of 

passion, love, 

romance, and truth. 

But at what price 

will she sacrifice 

her heart? Only she 

knows if she will 

let another man 

into her heart.

hey everyone... well lets see wuts been goin on lately... actually A LOT HAS BEEN HAPPENIN! weird things to... i mean the whole car accident thing kinda worked to my benefit... cuz yea well jus cuz the guy doesnt hav a license..i hav to admit that i am sum wut happy about it... at the same time i feel bad for the guy cuz well... hes kinda screwed..really screwed... I FEEL SOO BAD! i still feel bad for all that crap anyway...

so military ball is sat... n to tell u the truth i dont wanna go... but i hav to, i dunno thing r sooo confusing rite now.. seriously... i jus want things to work out ya know... well sry off sub.. so how many of u guys r exctied about military ball? the only thing i am actually ok about is that i am goin wit juan... so i wont b completely bored cuz i get to sit by at least one of my friends! oooo and guess wut... i found out that a guy ive kinda been crushing on likes me!...but the thing is that i hav like 3 or 4 classes with this guy... n if there is anythin that i hav learned is that goin out wit a guy that u hav a lot of classes wit is not a good idea at all! so i dunno wuts gonna happen...man things r soooooo confusing! if ppl would jus make up their minds!AHHHHHHH

*jacks